Sadly, you discovered a part of the job that you probably won't get over. When someone dies from a a traumatic incident you can console yourself with the fact that they are not suffering. Their families, sadly, start suffering when they reach the hospital and learn the fate of their loved one. I can remember calls were I would work as fast as possible to get back in service and away from the hospital so I wouldn't have to see the relatives of patients who had died in accidents. The worse ones usually involved teenagers, cars, and alcohol. They were the most tragic and stupid.

Chris