Matt, I had the rare honour of meeting a USS Indianapolis survivor. We talked at length and he suddenly invited me to his home office. It was obviously the man's inner sanctom with a rich life lived on display. He opened a closet and pulled out a faded MK 1 kapok lifejacket that made the worn out junk we surveyed ( toss out for you civilians)in the 70s look good. It was stencilled USS Indianapolis. He held onto that jacket even after being picked up. He told me bluntly whenever a life crisis came up later in life; a sick daughter, job loss etc. He would privately put his lifejacket on and sit quietly by himself for awhile. Your doing o.k. Don't sweat the small stuff as taught in rule # 1 and remember what rule # 2 is.