I hope that reintroducing myself isn't too silly, but it has been months since I have replied or posted.
The last two months has given me a new appreciation for my own survival skills. Yes, self-centered and egotistical as it sounds, at this point I think I can survive just about anything. Survival isn't just in the woods - it is everyday survival that kept me going. What my mom would call general coping skills.
I found out I was pregnant - something that I have been trying for with my hubby for a whlie now so it was a great thing. I then was ousted from my company, a small computer repair shop, by my partner and someone who wanted to merge companies. That was o.k. - not going into the politics, but lets just say I would not have been happy simplifying things for the other guy. So, I started to focus on my writing.
What does all this have to do with survival? It was when I went in for a secondary Ultrasound and was suddenly awash with concerned doctors and councilors that the survival skills really kicked in. I lost my baby. It took two weeks from the ultrasound, but I lost it. Well, I personally didn't lose it, even though it was a shatteringly painful experience both physicly and emotionally. I am doing well, and find that I have bounced back in body much quicker than any of the medical people had told me I would.
The family is still grieving. And I am getting tired of people saying that it will happen when it happens. But we will try again.
I found that I am now feeling much better, and that I had let myself get far too insular over the last few months. I am hoping that I will be able to share with the ETS forum people again as I drag myself into socialibility.
Thank you for letting me ramble!
Rena
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