gulp.
I was afraid of heights for a long time. Then I decided to figure out why and started to meditate on it.
-When I was roped into a climbing harness up on a shear face, I was not afraid.
-When I was rappelling out of helicopters, I was not afraid.
-When I stood in a high rise office and looked out the window, I was not afraid.
BUT---
When I stand on a high raise balcony and look over the railing, I am afraid.
When I stand on the top of a ladder, I am afraid.
When I stand on a roof or cliff and look over, I am afraid.
I realized that I do not have a fear of height or even a fear of falling. I HAVE A FEAR OF JUMPING. Once I realized that, now I find myself in those situations I tell myself, "Don't jump" and I am not afraid anymore.
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Don't just survive. Thrive.