Ann,
You've written one of the more courageous posts that I've had the pleasure of reading lately. Not only was it very well written but it provides an insight to a condition that that I (and I suspect too many others) never heard of before.
Reflecting back on folks that I've met over the years I get the strong impression that they were feeling and exhibiting symptoms of exactly what you so aptly described.
Postings like yours are one of the reasons that ETS is the wonderful resource that it has become.
Thank you for your efforts and explanations.
ps Welcome to the Forums (albeit a bit late).
Regards,
Comanche7