"...a properly disciplined mind would not only be able to reproduce physiological conditions, but also counteract externally induced changes to some degree."

I've had that idea thrown at me all my life. For DECADES, I couldn't figure out why I was so STUPID! It wasn't until my problem was diagnosed and I learned about it that I understood.

The Problem: How can you discipline your mind when you can't focus long enough to do any good?

The Answer: Darned if I know!

It's almost impossible for me to hypnotize myself because I can't concentrate. I've NEVER had anyone else able to hypnotize me. Focus on the watch, light, spot, etc? FOCUS???!!! NOW who's not paying attention?!

Looking backwards, I realized how many ways I found to deal with the reality of it:

* Developing x-rays at work (the old days, manually): Wear a timer and hope I wouldn't be sidetracked as I walked down the hall.

* Put important things (like keys) in the same place all the time.

* Leave notes on the kitchen counter to remind myself to lock up the chickens at night, turn the dryer on in the morning, call someone, go to a meeting.

* Leave the laundry basket on the washer or dryer so I'll remember that there are still clothes in there.

* Make sure anyone I'm sharing a house with puts the plastic "Shower" card on the washing machine before they head for the bathroom, or they'll get a cold surprise.

* Leave something on the dash in front of the steering wheel to remember to get gas.

* Keep writing materials handy 24/7.

* Keep a main shopping list to refer to so I can remember what it was that I forgot to put on the current grocery list when I was brushing my teeth or feeding the dog.

* Strangers think I have tattoos on the backs of my hands. No, just notes and lists, odometer readings and reminders.

* Leave a list of all the errands I have to run and what I need to get where, on the car seat, so I can refer to it as I go.

It's all very easy for others to say 'just do it', and they're talking to people who desperately wish we could. But you're as out of touch with how we are as you are in knowing how a fish thinks.

Sue