if someone calls 911, I'm not coming..... and if the wind is right, I'll hear the siren. [/quote]

I feel exactly like I have after a breakup of a long-term romance, possibly worse. [/quote]

I felt the same way when I bowed out after 5 years of EMS as an EMT due to burnout. But making the decision to bow out paved the way to great opportunities and a great life since. Good luck!