Good deal dweste.
I'm wishing the best for you, and want to thank you for sharing what's going on with you (man, that sounded like a therapy group I was in once).
In reading your posts and the responses of others, I re-evaluate my family's preparedness level and learn from you - thanks.
There are probably folks not part of the ETS community that lurk through that may be going through something similar and are learning from you as well.
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peace,
samhain autumnwood