I should point out, that much like you expressed in your first post, I completely and totally took all responsibilty and blamed myself for everything for about 2 years. The wife and I could be driving along in the car and she could tell my mind had drifted on the subject due to my countenance. It randomly ruined my mood for a while. It passes.

Sorry if I'm being to ebullient on the topic. Just struck a chord with me, thats all. Hopefully you get something out of it.
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