Should I succeed in my ultimate goals, my own happiness will be fulfilled. Thing is, things like family, kids, good job, money, all those things cannot hold importance to me, until I do figure out what shot I have at my goals.
But I'm also weighing in the factor of how many people that I will make life better for, should I succeed.
Could you clarify what your ultimate goals are?
Also, how will life be better for other people (family) if you survive this journey since you have, I perceive, a disregard for them to begin with? They may be happy you are alive, in general, but I'm not sure the wounds of being discarded will really heal. It seems a little contradictory to me.
These questions are asked only for clarification from the point-of-view of a father with a child who is your age.
Your trek for personal enlightment will be arduous and full of rigor.
I honestly wish you success.
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