I understand... Well Bud, you may well be right, I haven't had the post up for too long. I hope that nobody does try to persuade me from doing this, however. If it could be done, my family and friends would have done it by now(and believe me, not all of them understand). Although I welcome anyone's take of my situation, my main purpose for sifting and communicating on this forum is for advice on how to survive, because I will end up going regardless, and the more I have in my brain(and notes), the better chance I'll have.