That is a lot to take in, but I can identify with your situation. I dropped out of college after my junior year and worked a variety of jobs for a couple years. I spent a lot of ties hiking and camping alone in the Sierra Nevada mountains hoping to see things more clearly. I also spent a lot of time in the flat country drinking beer and continuing my career of trying unsuccessfully to figure out women.

I am troubled that you would write that your, "happiness and personal outcome is of no importance ...." I don't think you really mean that, but I recognize that you believe it is much more important and worthy to selflessly give the gift of yourself to the world. Dave, from my perspective they are two sides of the same coin.

I'm going to think about this some more and watch to see what the community thinks.

Thanks you for your courage in sharing all this.