If you figure it out, let me know.

A philosopher said that "what doesn't kill us, makes us stronger." In life, some trouble gets your attention and can actually make you better able to cope.

A friend in aviation safety once told me that the 2 safest (army aviation) pilots are those just out of training and those nearing retirement. Why? The new guys are scared and double check everything. The old guys KNOW that something can or will go wrong, and expect it. The guys in the middle are confident and think they have it down pat then have bad things happen that a) kills them or b) puts the fear of death into them, making them safer pilots as they continue in their career and get out of the close scrapes. Such is life.