here and in other places you will find the acronym TEOTWAWKI (the end of the world as we know it) and there are several ways to interpet it, it can mean different things to different people, and for you TEOTWAWKI is exactly what happened. I'm sorry it happened, and I'm sorry it seems it happens so often in todays society. From my own experiance I know when the world ends you build your own new one or die with the old one. You sound like your determined to build a new one. All any one can do here is offfer hopes and prayer's and you have mine
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Depend on yourself, help those who are not able, and teach those that are.