Realistically?

When real life crisis hits you will do one of 2 things.

1. You will overcome your anxiety and do what needs to be done.

2. You won’t.

Don’t mean to sound crass, but that’s the long and short of it all. If you can’t handle normal every day life without serious limitations it’s only bound to get a whole lot worse when things turn bad. All the gear and supplies in the world will be of no use if you are unable to face a bad situation mentally.

Something tells me you already know that though. I can’t offer advice (far above my pay grade) but I hope you figure it out. I’ve a lot of friends struggling with similar issues and I’m greatful every day I don’t.